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My FALTU Dream: Trip to Brazil part 1

Warning: The following dream may contain FALTU language. 

In my dreams, I always end up being in Bangladesh. I am always in some chipa goli like shakhari bazar  and it smells vegetable shit!!! So I was returning home to Tokyo from my office in Dhaka by Rickshaw.

When the rickshawala was in some chou rastar mour and skidding like a F1 car to turn left, I realised I left my jacket, pen and piece of bread in the school lockers, even though I was coming from fucking Office. Anyway I asked rickshawala to go back where we came from. As I arrived at the gate of my school which was very narrow(btw the rickshawala knew he had to get back to my school not my office), I found my items piled in a dry drain(nordoma) and kids were laughing. But the rickshawala came to help me and I gave him the piece of bread. That poor bitch refused to accept my bread. He told me that the date has expired. "I do not eat any bread which is one day old. I only eat fresh". You can imagine how fucking surprised I was at that time. Mamma MIA!!!

Anyway,  as we were getting back to tokyo from Shutrapur, I started to day dream. And when I got a phone call in real life(I mean few minutes ago in tokyo in real life), I stopped day dreaming and found my self on a Ferry !!! The sea water was blue and with WTF look, I asked ricksawala:" What is this place? Where are we going?Yea I asked him in English.!!!"

HE SAYS, "We are going to brazil!!!"

TO BE CONTINUED
part 2 after eating breakfast.

List of all activity actions

android.app.action.ADD_DEVICE_ADMIN
android.app.action.SET_NEW_PASSWORD
android.app.action.START_ENCRYPTION
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.REQUEST_DISCOVERABLE
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.REQUEST_ENABLE
android.intent.action.ALL_APPS
android.intent.action.ANSWER
android.intent.action.APP_ERROR
android.intent.action.ATTACH_DATA
android.intent.action.BUG_REPORT
android.intent.action.CALL
android.intent.action.CALL_BUTTON
android.intent.action.CHOOSER
android.intent.action.CREATE_LIVE_FOLDER
android.intent.action.CREATE_SHORTCUT
android.intent.action.DELETE
android.intent.action.DIAL
android.intent.action.EDIT
android.intent.action.EVENT_REMINDER
android.intent.action.GET_CONTENT
android.intent.action.INSERT
android.intent.action.INSERT_OR_EDIT
android.intent.action.INSTALL_PACKAGE
android.intent.action.MAIN
android.intent.action.MANAGE_NETWORK_USAGE
android.intent.action.MEDIA_SEARCH
android.intent.action.MUSIC_PLAYER
android.intent.action.PASTE
android.intent.action.PICK
android.intent.action.PICK_ACTIVITY
android.intent.action.POWER_USAGE_SUMMARY
android.intent.action.RINGTONE_PICKER
android.intent.action.RUN
android.intent.action.SEARCH
android.intent.action.SEARCH_LONG_PRESS
android.intent.action.SEND
android.intent.action.SENDTO
android.intent.action.SEND_MULTIPLE
android.intent.action.SET_ALARM
android.intent.action.SET_WALLPAPER
android.intent.action.SYNC
android.intent.action.SYSTEM_TUTORIAL
android.intent.action.UNINSTALL_PACKAGE
android.intent.action.VIEW
android.intent.action.VOICE_COMMAND
android.intent.action.WEB_SEARCH
android.media.action.DISPLAY_AUDIO_EFFECT_CONTROL_PANEL
android.net.wifi.PICK_WIFI_NETWORK
android.nfc.action.NDEF_DISCOVERED
android.nfc.action.TAG_DISCOVERED
android.nfc.action.TECH_DISCOVERED
android.search.action.SEARCH_SETTINGS
android.settings.ACCESSIBILITY_SETTINGS
android.settings.ADD_ACCOUNT_SETTINGS
android.settings.AIRPLANE_MODE_SETTINGS
android.settings.APN_SETTINGS
android.settings.APPLICATION_DETAILS_SETTINGS
android.settings.APPLICATION_DEVELOPMENT_SETTINGS
android.settings.APPLICATION_SETTINGS
android.settings.BLUETOOTH_SETTINGS
android.settings.DATA_ROAMING_SETTINGS
android.settings.DATE_SETTINGS
android.settings.DEVICE_INFO_SETTINGS
android.settings.DISPLAY_SETTINGS
android.settings.INPUT_METHOD_SETTINGS
android.settings.INPUT_METHOD_SUBTYPE_SETTINGS
android.settings.INTERNAL_STORAGE_SETTINGS
android.settings.LOCALE_SETTINGS
android.settings.LOCATION_SOURCE_SETTINGS
android.settings.MANAGE_ALL_APPLICATIONS_SETTINGS
android.settings.MANAGE_APPLICATIONS_SETTINGS
android.settings.MEMORY_CARD_SETTINGS
android.settings.NETWORK_OPERATOR_SETTINGS
android.settings.NFCSHARING_SETTINGS
android.settings.PRIVACY_SETTINGS
android.settings.QUICK_LAUNCH_SETTINGS
android.settings.SECURITY_SETTINGS
android.settings.SETTINGS
android.settings.SOUND_SETTINGS
android.settings.SYNC_SETTINGS
android.settings.USER_DICTIONARY_SETTINGS
android.settings.WIFI_IP_SETTINGS
android.settings.WIFI_SETTINGS
android.settings.WIRELESS_SETTINGS
android.speech.tts.engine.CHECK_TTS_DATA
android.speech.tts.engine.INSTALL_TTS_DATA

List of all broadcast intents or actions

android.app.action.ACTION_PASSWORD_CHANGED
android.app.action.ACTION_PASSWORD_EXPIRING
android.app.action.ACTION_PASSWORD_FAILED
android.app.action.ACTION_PASSWORD_SUCCEEDED
android.app.action.DEVICE_ADMIN_DISABLED
android.app.action.DEVICE_ADMIN_DISABLE_REQUESTED
android.app.action.DEVICE_ADMIN_ENABLED
android.bluetooth.a2dp.profile.action.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.a2dp.profile.action.PLAYING_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.DISCOVERY_FINISHED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.DISCOVERY_STARTED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.LOCAL_NAME_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.SCAN_MODE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.adapter.action.STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.device.action.ACL_CONNECTED
android.bluetooth.device.action.ACL_DISCONNECTED
android.bluetooth.device.action.ACL_DISCONNECT_REQUESTED
android.bluetooth.device.action.BOND_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.device.action.CLASS_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.device.action.FOUND
android.bluetooth.device.action.NAME_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.device.action.UUID
android.bluetooth.devicepicker.action.DEVICE_SELECTED
android.bluetooth.devicepicker.action.LAUNCH
android.bluetooth.headset.action.VENDOR_SPECIFIC_HEADSET_EVENT
android.bluetooth.headset.profile.action.AUDIO_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.headset.profile.action.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.input.profile.action.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGED
android.bluetooth.pan.profile.action.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGED
android.hardware.action.NEW_PICTURE
android.hardware.action.NEW_VIDEO
android.intent.action.ACTION_POWER_CONNECTED
android.intent.action.ACTION_POWER_DISCONNECTED
android.intent.action.ACTION_SHUTDOWN
android.intent.action.AIRPLANE_MODE
android.intent.action.BATTERY_CHANGED
android.intent.action.BATTERY_LOW
android.intent.action.BATTERY_OKAY
android.intent.action.BOOT_COMPLETED
android.intent.action.CAMERA_BUTTON
android.intent.action.CONFIGURATION_CHANGED
android.intent.action.DATA_SMS_RECEIVED
android.intent.action.DATE_CHANGED
android.intent.action.DEVICE_STORAGE_LOW
android.intent.action.DEVICE_STORAGE_OK
android.intent.action.DOCK_EVENT
android.intent.action.EXTERNAL_APPLICATIONS_AVAILABLE
android.intent.action.EXTERNAL_APPLICATIONS_UNAVAILABLE
android.intent.action.FETCH_VOICEMAIL
android.intent.action.GTALK_CONNECTED
android.intent.action.GTALK_DISCONNECTED
android.intent.action.HEADSET_PLUG
android.intent.action.INPUT_METHOD_CHANGED
android.intent.action.LOCALE_CHANGED
android.intent.action.MANAGE_PACKAGE_STORAGE
android.intent.action.MEDIA_BAD_REMOVAL
android.intent.action.MEDIA_BUTTON
android.intent.action.MEDIA_CHECKING
android.intent.action.MEDIA_EJECT
android.intent.action.MEDIA_MOUNTED
android.intent.action.MEDIA_NOFS
android.intent.action.MEDIA_REMOVED
android.intent.action.MEDIA_SCANNER_FINISHED
android.intent.action.MEDIA_SCANNER_SCAN_FILE
android.intent.action.MEDIA_SCANNER_STARTED
android.intent.action.MEDIA_SHARED
android.intent.action.MEDIA_UNMOUNTABLE
android.intent.action.MEDIA_UNMOUNTED
android.intent.action.MY_PACKAGE_REPLACED
android.intent.action.NEW_OUTGOING_CALL
android.intent.action.NEW_VOICEMAIL
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_ADDED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_CHANGED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_DATA_CLEARED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_FIRST_LAUNCH
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_FULLY_REMOVED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_INSTALL
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_NEEDS_VERIFICATION
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_REMOVED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_REPLACED
android.intent.action.PACKAGE_RESTARTED
android.intent.action.PHONE_STATE
android.intent.action.PROVIDER_CHANGED
android.intent.action.PROXY_CHANGE
android.intent.action.REBOOT
android.intent.action.SCREEN_OFF
android.intent.action.SCREEN_ON
android.intent.action.TIMEZONE_CHANGED
android.intent.action.TIME_SET
android.intent.action.TIME_TICK
android.intent.action.UID_REMOVED
android.intent.action.USER_PRESENT
android.intent.action.WALLPAPER_CHANGED
android.media.ACTION_SCO_AUDIO_STATE_UPDATED
android.media.AUDIO_BECOMING_NOISY
android.media.RINGER_MODE_CHANGED
android.media.SCO_AUDIO_STATE_CHANGED
android.media.VIBRATE_SETTING_CHANGED
android.media.action.CLOSE_AUDIO_EFFECT_CONTROL_SESSION
android.media.action.OPEN_AUDIO_EFFECT_CONTROL_SESSION
android.net.conn.BACKGROUND_DATA_SETTING_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.NETWORK_IDS_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.RSSI_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.SCAN_RESULTS
android.net.wifi.STATE_CHANGE
android.net.wifi.WIFI_STATE_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.p2p.CONNECTION_STATE_CHANGE
android.net.wifi.p2p.PEERS_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.p2p.STATE_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.p2p.THIS_DEVICE_CHANGED
android.net.wifi.supplicant.CONNECTION_CHANGE
android.net.wifi.supplicant.STATE_CHANGE
android.provider.Telephony.SIM_FULL
android.provider.Telephony.SMS_CB_RECEIVED
android.provider.Telephony.SMS_EMERGENCY_CB_RECEIVED
android.provider.Telephony.SMS_RECEIVED
android.provider.Telephony.SMS_REJECTED
android.provider.Telephony.WAP_PUSH_RECEIVED
android.speech.tts.TTS_QUEUE_PROCESSING_COMPLETED
android.speech.tts.engine.TTS_DATA_INSTALLED

Remove BOM (Mac OS X)

BOM is sometimes a pain in the ASS when you are trying to build android project with ANT.
Save the following script in a text file and change the file extension to "sh". Don't forget to make it executable before executing it :D (chmod +x ). If you want the windows version too, let me know.


#!/bin/bash


set -o nounset
set -o errexit


DELETE_ORIG=true
DELETE_FLAG=""
RECURSIVE=false
PROCESSALLFILE=false
PROCESSING_FILES=false
PROCESSALLFILE_FLAG=""
SED_EXEC=sed
USE_EXT=false
FILE_EXT=""
TMP_CMD="mktemp"
TMP_OPTS="--tmpdir="
XDEV=""
ISDARWIN=false


if [ $(uname) == "SunOS" ] ; then
  if [ -x /usr/gnu/bin/sed ] ; then
    echo "Using GNU sed..."
    SED_EXEC=/usr/gnu/bin/sed
  fi
  TMP_OPTS="-p "
fi


if [ $(uname) == "Darwin" ] ; then
  TMP_OPTS="-t tmp"

  SED_EXEC="perl -pe"
  echo "Using perl..."
  ISDARWIN=true

fi


function usage() {
  echo "bom-remove [-adrx] [-s sed-name] [-e ext] files..."
  echo ""
  echo "  -a    Remove the BOM throughout the entire file."
  echo "  -e    Look only for files with the chosen extensions."
  echo "  -d    Do not overwrite original files and do not remove temp files."
  echo "  -r    Scan subdirectories."
  echo "  -s    Specify an alternate sed implementation."
  echo "  -x    Don't descend directories in other filesystems."
}


function checkExecutable() {
  if ( ! which "$1" > /dev/null 2>&1 ); then
    echo "Cannot find executable:" $1
    exit 4
  fi
}


function parseArgs() {
  while getopts "adfrs:e:x" flag
  do
    case $flag in
      a) PROCESSALLFILE=true ; PROCESSALLFILE_FLAG="-a" ;;
      r) RECURSIVE=true ;;
      f) PROCESSING_FILES=true ;;
      s) SED_EXEC=$OPTARG ;;
      e) USE_EXT=true ; FILE_EXT=$OPTARG ;;
      d) DELETE_ORIG=false ; DELETE_FLAG="-d" ;;
      x) XDEV="-xdev" ;;
      *) echo "Unknown parameter." ; usage ; exit 2 ;;
    esac
  done


  shift $(($OPTIND - 1))



  if [ $# == 0 ] ; then
    usage;
    exit 2;
  fi



  # fixing darwin
  if [[ $ISDARWIN == true && $PROCESSALLFILE == false ]] ; then
    PROCESSALLFILE=true
    echo "Process all file is implicitly set on Darwin."
  fi

  FILES=("$@")


  if [ ! -n "$FILES" ]; then
    echo "No files specified. Exiting."
  fi


  if [ $RECURSIVE == true ]  && [ $PROCESSING_FILES == true ] ; then
    echo "Cannot use -r and -f at the same time."
    usage
    exit 1
  fi


  checkExecutable $SED_EXEC
  checkExecutable $TMP_CMD
}


function processFile() {
  if [ $(uname) == "Darwin" ] ; then
    TEMPFILENAME=$($TMP_CMD $TMP_OPTS)
  else
    TEMPFILENAME=$($TMP_CMD $TMP_OPTS"$(dirname "$1")")
  fi
  echo "Processing $1 using temp file $TEMPFILENAME"


  if [ $PROCESSALLFILE == false ] ; then
    cat "$1" | $SED_EXEC '1 s/\xEF\xBB\xBF//' > "$TEMPFILENAME"
  else
    cat "$1" | $SED_EXEC 's/\xEF\xBB\xBF//g' > "$TEMPFILENAME"
  fi


  if [ $DELETE_ORIG == true ] ; then
    if [ ! -w "$1" ] ; then
      echo "$1 is not writable. Leaving tempfile."
    else
      echo "Removing temp file..."
      mv "$TEMPFILENAME" "$1"
    fi
  fi
}


function doJob() {
  # Check if the script has been called from the outside.
  if [ $PROCESSING_FILES == true ] ; then
    for i in {1 ${#FILES[@]}}
    do
      echo ${FILES[$i-1]}
      processFile "${FILES[$i-1]}"
    done


  else
    # processing every file
for i in {1 ${#FILES[@]}}
do
CURRFILE=${FILES[$i-1]}}
      # checking if file or directory exist
      if [ ! -e "$CURRFILE" ] ; then echo "File not found: $CURRFILE. Skipping..." ; continue ; fi
   
      # if a paremeter is a directory, process it recursively if RECURSIVE is set
      if [ -d "$CURRFILE" ] ; then
        if [ $RECURSIVE == true ] ; then
          if [ $USE_EXT == true ] ; then
            find "$CURRFILE" $XDEV -type f -name "*.$FILE_EXT" -exec "$0" $DELETE_FLAG $PROCESSALLFILE_FLAG -f "{}" \;
          else
            find "$CURRFILE" $XDEV -type f -exec "$0" $DELETE_FLAG $PROCESSALLFILE_FLAG -f "{}" \;
          fi
        else
          echo "$CURRFILE is a directory. Skipping..."
        fi
      else
        processFile "$CURRFILE"
      fi
    done
  fi
}


parseArgs "$@"
doJob

Android - How to detect end of scroll inside List View

Step 1: Set the scroll listener of the list view like below.

list.setOnScrollListener(new OnScrollListener() {});

Step 2: Override the onScroll function and copy/paste the following code

@Override

public void onScroll(AbsListView view, int firstVisibleItem,

int visibleItemCount, int totalItemCount) {

if (list.getLastVisiblePosition() == list.getAdapter().getCount() - 1

&& list.getChildAt(list.getChildCount() - 1).getBottom() <= list.getHeight()) {

//scroll end reached

//Write your code here

}

}

How to build android project with Ant ?

Replace () with your own value

Step 1:  cd to project directory

Step 2: android update project -p .

Step 3: linux/unix: nano ant.properties  
            windows: notepad ant.properties

Step 4: input the following: 


  key.store=(path of key store file )/.keystore
  key.alias=(name of alias)
  key.store.password=(password of key store)
  key.alias.password=(password of key alias)

Step 5: 
ant release;
adb install -r bin/(generated file name).apk;
adb shell am start -a android.intent.action.MAIN -n (package name)/(package name).(activity name)

To make life easier, put step 5 inside a bash script and run it :)

Ant でAndroidプロジェクトをビルド方法：(in Japanese)
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Step 1: コマンドプロンプトで プロジェクトフォルダの中に移動する　（cd コマンド）

Step 2: android update project -p .

Step 3: notepad ant.properties

Step 4:  下記を記載して保存
  key.store=??/.keystore
  key.alias=??
  key.store.password=??
  key.alias.password=??

Step 5: ant release;adb install -r bin/.apk;adb shell am start -a android.intent.action.MAIN -n package name/package name.activity name

Android - Soft keyboard does not hide after done is pressed ?

Just add the following as textbox property

android:imeOptions="actionDone"

Android - Change the default focus inside a Alert dialogue

set on focus change for any object inside the dialog.

@Override

public void onFocusChange(View view, boolean hasFocus) {

// Set focus where ever you want according to your custom logic

// for example to focus on the positive button after a webview scroll

// web is the webview and the buttons are initialized inside onCreateDialog 

        if(!web.isFocused() && !positiveButton.isFocused() && negativeButton.isFocused()){

            positiveButton.requestFocus();

        }

}

Android - How to detect scroll inside webview?

Create a custom webview class which extends of course webview :)

public class CustomWebView extends WebView 

Override the following method

@Override

protected void onScrollChanged(int l, int t, int oldl, int oldt) 

int l is x, int is y

Thats it :)

Android - Can not focus into objects inside listview?

listView.setItemsCanFocus(true);//self explanatory

 Edit the view that you want to add inside the listview. Add the following property.
 android:descendantFocusability="afterDescendants"

 The End :)

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Metal: My new Song

Far Beyond The Sun

あなたの目

あなたの目は何かを語っている。
あなたは笑顔の裏に傷みを抱えている。
一つサインをわかっても、他のサインを見逃している?

何があなたの心を悩ませているか？教えて。。。

私の人生

もう自分自身を非表示にすることはできません。私の中で罪悪感がたくさんある。
今、自分が嫌いだ。すべての忍耐を失っている。自尊心を失っている。
本当に愛する人も失っている。
うんがすごい悪い。
も、一人で歩けない　：（

Seirei no moribito OST (soundtrack) 精霊の守人OST

Download (ダウンロード)

http://rapidshare.com/files/282178711/01_-_Omoi_Haruka.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178702/02_-_Tamikusa_no_Sasoi.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178669/03_-_Shoka_ni_Tobu.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178661/04_-_Hoshi_Yomi_no_Tou.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178577/05_-_Hizou.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178567/06_-_Miezaru_Kyoui.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178559/07_-_Karu_.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178504/08_-_Daichiyo.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178459/09_-_Bon.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178442/10_-_Aiirenuri.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178424/11_-_Tanomareya.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178361/12_-_Saya_ki_Kokoro_no_Mono.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178290/13_-_Yakusou_Shi_ga_Iku.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178280/14_-_Ichi_Hishigi.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178268/15_-_Anryuu.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178251/16_-_Ikai.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178151/17_-_Nigero_.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178138/18_-_Kizuna.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178125/19_-_Inori.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178109/20_-_Jujutsu_Shi_no_Haikai.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178039/21_-_Sougon_Naru_Nayugu.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178029/22_-_Mizu_no_Tami.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178020/23_-_Wakare_no_Toki.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282178001/24_-_Balsa_Hashiru.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177885/25_-_Sekihi_wa_Kataru.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177868/26_-_Eiyuu__Tatsu.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177860/27_-_Michishirube.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177832/Case_Spine_Inner.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177823/Case_Spine_Outer.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177812/CD.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177785/28_-_Nahji_no_Uta.mp3
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177774/Booklet_01.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177758/Booklet_02.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177744/Booklet_03.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177724/Booklet_04.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177708/Booklet_05.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177697/Booklet_06.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177685/Case_Cover_Back_Inner.jpg
http://rapidshare.com/files/282177667/Case_Cover_Back_Outer.jpg

Dimebag Darallel

Yeah Dimebag died in December 8 2004 but still can't get it how can he die Until NOW. On that day, I was sleeping in the afternoon and had no idea what happened. My best friend Mark came and woke me up and said Darrell is Dead. He was shot. I just started laughing and said bullshit. How can he die? How can someone whose music flows in my vain die like that. I heard from others and was watching in the Internet that he died but still couldn't get it. Seemed like its just some cover up. He didn't die probably hiding in some place. I don't know why. I was laughing all day that Darrell died and still couldn't realize the truth. There was no sadness in my mind because my mind simply didn't believe it.

From that time, I gradually stopped hearing Pantera. I thought Philip had something to do with his death. So I could not hear Pantera. Those groovy rocking songs were not anymore head-banging things for me. That brought only silence and hate to my mind about the Motherfucker who shot my guitar hero Dimebag.

Today after four years I am finally crying. Now I realize that he is dead and wont come back ever. Its extremely hard to accept this truth. I am crying hard now as all this years I did not have any tears in my eye for him.

I know life moves on but still its quite hard to believe that Darrell is not present. I just imagine what more cool music he could have created by now. I am terribly upset for his death.

quantum physics describes my thoughts. It rules

Now I have completed seeing the movie "What the bleep do we know". I am so happy about myself because now I am sure that my ideas are not just imaginary or crap. Horrendously my ideas matches with that movie and I can understand in detail. Thanks to Niphredil for informing me about such a great film.
Of course as told in the movie it is very hard to be in control of yourself. We need lots of time for that. Yeah we are very busy with our lives but at least we all should watch the movie mentioned above and try to understand what can be really done with our lives and move forward with a reason. I will upload the movie in rapidshare and give the link here.

I will highly recommend people to believe in themselves and think positive. Please hide your negative energy with your positive energy. I have my level 2 japanese language examination this December. I really need positive energy for that. I am seeing now that I passed the examination and I hope to overcome my fear and study. I will pass the examination.
Anyway this is my blog and also a diary of my life. So I can write whatever I want. It does not have to be organized.
One more thing, I really try to remove hate from my mind but hate it is also necessary but I try to remove it as much as possible from my brain. Even though I listen to heavy metal music and I am a heavy metal musician myself, I do not like hating things. I feel much better if I don't hate things but try to understand it.
We all are unique and among us there are people who are more unique and who really thinks outside the box or without any box. They are the people who changes the world and we should at least respect them and don't just be blind with our religions.
Niphredil tells me many things and when I think about the things that she tells, I found them really useful(Most of them). She should also write a blog because she really can explain life in a better way. Ok its time for my studies I have to go now. I had other ideas that I wanted to put but now it just vanished.

My Log Wednesday September 10 2008

Date : Tuesday September 9 2008

I thought that before I watch the documentary that Niphredil my goldfish Andrea wanted to show me, I should write what I think about the universe. I always told people about it but this is the first time I am writing about it.

Now First of all what is God or the universe. I always believed that we are the gods and we are all gods responsible for things around us.
We are all the same. I mean this idea is from me, not from books or TV but from deep within me. Because I really believe we are all same, all means everything including us, our food, air anything. We are outputs of some algorithms. The mystery is the algorithm. Who created this algorithm? because in our brain we always think this away that somebody has to create something.
May be the algorithm is created by the algorithm it self(What the fuck does that mean?). We are just combinations of things and for the combinations we look different. May be the food we eat is actually us in some other state. May be we are eating ourselves and breathing ourselves and just watching everything that is actually us.Everything is part of me and I am part of everything around me.
This ideas came up when I used to think for hours in my bed in the years 2000 and 2001 because at that time I really started it. I have to accept it. Accept the truth and stop acting in this society. Use myself to see the world around me not from books which limits my thinking.
Now lets talk about the brain. Amazing thing this is. We are actually our brains. In that place we are what we want to be. We see what we want to see and it shows what need to be seen. Do we really see what is really out there. because our body might be still primitive and doesn't have all the senses to see the real world. Because there are animals which can see more in this world than us.
The other thing about this cool universe is the thoughts. This thoughts can make you a freak. It can project things and it can also give you the answer. Where do people come up with answers. I say that the answers were within the brain and he/she just found it. The secret of the universe lies inside our brain. Its there but we don't know how to retrieve it. If we do not think about our existence and about this world then we are not humans. We think because we are humans. If we are not curious we are just not humans and wasting our precious brain. But hey thats how it should be :)
Everything single thing in this universe is just OK. It is just what it should be. We say that man destroys the environment and the life cycle and the echo system. But we may be humans but we are still animals. May be it is our destiny.