Yeah Dimebag died in December 8 2004 but still can't get it how can he die Until NOW. On that day, I was sleeping in the afternoon and had no idea what happened. My best friend Mark came and woke me up and said Darrell is Dead. He was shot. I just started laughing and said bullshit. How can he die? How can someone whose music flows in my vain die like that. I heard from others and was watching in the Internet that he died but still couldn't get it. Seemed like its just some cover up. He didn't die probably hiding in some place. I don't know why. I was laughing all day that Darrell died and still couldn't realize the truth. There was no sadness in my mind because my mind simply didn't believe it.
From that time, I gradually stopped hearing Pantera. I thought Philip had something to do with his death. So I could not hear Pantera. Those groovy rocking songs were not anymore head-banging things for me. That brought only silence and hate to my mind about the Motherfucker who shot my guitar hero Dimebag.
Today after four years I am finally crying. Now I realize that he is dead and wont come back ever. Its extremely hard to accept this truth. I am crying hard now as all this years I did not have any tears in my eye for him.
I know life moves on but still its quite hard to believe that Darrell is not present. I just imagine what more cool music he could have created by now. I am terribly upset for his death.
Software Engineer, Heavy Metal Guitarist and Songwriter
Monday, September 29, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
quantum physics describes my thoughts. It rules
Now I have completed seeing the movie "What the bleep do we know". I am so happy about myself because now I am sure that my ideas are not just imaginary or crap. Horrendously my ideas matches with that movie and I can understand in detail. Thanks to Niphredil for informing me about such a great film.
Of course as told in the movie it is very hard to be in control of yourself. We need lots of time for that. Yeah we are very busy with our lives but at least we all should watch the movie mentioned above and try to understand what can be really done with our lives and move forward with a reason. I will upload the movie in rapidshare and give the link here.
I will highly recommend people to believe in themselves and think positive. Please hide your negative energy with your positive energy. I have my level 2 japanese language examination this December. I really need positive energy for that. I am seeing now that I passed the examination and I hope to overcome my fear and study. I will pass the examination.
Anyway this is my blog and also a diary of my life. So I can write whatever I want. It does not have to be organized.
One more thing, I really try to remove hate from my mind but hate it is also necessary but I try to remove it as much as possible from my brain. Even though I listen to heavy metal music and I am a heavy metal musician myself, I do not like hating things. I feel much better if I don't hate things but try to understand it.
We all are unique and among us there are people who are more unique and who really thinks outside the box or without any box. They are the people who changes the world and we should at least respect them and don't just be blind with our religions.
Niphredil tells me many things and when I think about the things that she tells, I found them really useful(Most of them). She should also write a blog because she really can explain life in a better way. Ok its time for my studies I have to go now. I had other ideas that I wanted to put but now it just vanished.
Of course as told in the movie it is very hard to be in control of yourself. We need lots of time for that. Yeah we are very busy with our lives but at least we all should watch the movie mentioned above and try to understand what can be really done with our lives and move forward with a reason. I will upload the movie in rapidshare and give the link here.
I will highly recommend people to believe in themselves and think positive. Please hide your negative energy with your positive energy. I have my level 2 japanese language examination this December. I really need positive energy for that. I am seeing now that I passed the examination and I hope to overcome my fear and study. I will pass the examination.
Anyway this is my blog and also a diary of my life. So I can write whatever I want. It does not have to be organized.
One more thing, I really try to remove hate from my mind but hate it is also necessary but I try to remove it as much as possible from my brain. Even though I listen to heavy metal music and I am a heavy metal musician myself, I do not like hating things. I feel much better if I don't hate things but try to understand it.
We all are unique and among us there are people who are more unique and who really thinks outside the box or without any box. They are the people who changes the world and we should at least respect them and don't just be blind with our religions.
Niphredil tells me many things and when I think about the things that she tells, I found them really useful(Most of them). She should also write a blog because she really can explain life in a better way. Ok its time for my studies I have to go now. I had other ideas that I wanted to put but now it just vanished.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
My Log Wednesday September 10 2008
Date : Tuesday September 9 2008
I thought that before I watch the documentary that Niphredil my goldfish Andrea wanted to show me, I should write what I think about the universe. I always told people about it but this is the first time I am writing about it.
Now First of all what is God or the universe. I always believed that we are the gods and we are all gods responsible for things around us.
We are all the same. I mean this idea is from me, not from books or TV but from deep within me. Because I really believe we are all same, all means everything including us, our food, air anything. We are outputs of some algorithms. The mystery is the algorithm. Who created this algorithm? because in our brain we always think this away that somebody has to create something.
May be the algorithm is created by the algorithm it self(What the fuck does that mean?). We are just combinations of things and for the combinations we look different. May be the food we eat is actually us in some other state. May be we are eating ourselves and breathing ourselves and just watching everything that is actually us.Everything is part of me and I am part of everything around me.
This ideas came up when I used to think for hours in my bed in the years 2000 and 2001 because at that time I really started it. I have to accept it. Accept the truth and stop acting in this society. Use myself to see the world around me not from books which limits my thinking.
Now lets talk about the brain. Amazing thing this is. We are actually our brains. In that place we are what we want to be. We see what we want to see and it shows what need to be seen. Do we really see what is really out there. because our body might be still primitive and doesn't have all the senses to see the real world. Because there are animals which can see more in this world than us.
The other thing about this cool universe is the thoughts. This thoughts can make you a freak. It can project things and it can also give you the answer. Where do people come up with answers. I say that the answers were within the brain and he/she just found it. The secret of the universe lies inside our brain. Its there but we don't know how to retrieve it. If we do not think about our existence and about this world then we are not humans. We think because we are humans. If we are not curious we are just not humans and wasting our precious brain. But hey thats how it should be :)
Everything single thing in this universe is just OK. It is just what it should be. We say that man destroys the environment and the life cycle and the echo system. But we may be humans but we are still animals. May be it is our destiny.
I thought that before I watch the documentary that Niphredil my goldfish Andrea wanted to show me, I should write what I think about the universe. I always told people about it but this is the first time I am writing about it.
Now First of all what is God or the universe. I always believed that we are the gods and we are all gods responsible for things around us.
We are all the same. I mean this idea is from me, not from books or TV but from deep within me. Because I really believe we are all same, all means everything including us, our food, air anything. We are outputs of some algorithms. The mystery is the algorithm. Who created this algorithm? because in our brain we always think this away that somebody has to create something.
May be the algorithm is created by the algorithm it self(What the fuck does that mean?). We are just combinations of things and for the combinations we look different. May be the food we eat is actually us in some other state. May be we are eating ourselves and breathing ourselves and just watching everything that is actually us.Everything is part of me and I am part of everything around me.
This ideas came up when I used to think for hours in my bed in the years 2000 and 2001 because at that time I really started it. I have to accept it. Accept the truth and stop acting in this society. Use myself to see the world around me not from books which limits my thinking.
Now lets talk about the brain. Amazing thing this is. We are actually our brains. In that place we are what we want to be. We see what we want to see and it shows what need to be seen. Do we really see what is really out there. because our body might be still primitive and doesn't have all the senses to see the real world. Because there are animals which can see more in this world than us.
The other thing about this cool universe is the thoughts. This thoughts can make you a freak. It can project things and it can also give you the answer. Where do people come up with answers. I say that the answers were within the brain and he/she just found it. The secret of the universe lies inside our brain. Its there but we don't know how to retrieve it. If we do not think about our existence and about this world then we are not humans. We think because we are humans. If we are not curious we are just not humans and wasting our precious brain. But hey thats how it should be :)
Everything single thing in this universe is just OK. It is just what it should be. We say that man destroys the environment and the life cycle and the echo system. But we may be humans but we are still animals. May be it is our destiny.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
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